-: pain has never been so brilliant :-

fvck_you @ 2004-09-28T21:19:00

2004-09-29T01:19:55Z

im a horrible person.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-28T18:08:00

2004-09-28T22:09:21Z

"I'm Content With Losing" -Underoath

like i said; "leave your baggage at the back door.
i'm leaving you, the way I think it should be...
we're always pulling into spaces that we can't back out of,
starting fights....
we cant talk our way out of this

how does it feel to be on the receiving end of this one?
of this one?

im half way there,
(its all on me)
this is what i get for wanting more....
for wanting more

this is the way its got to be;
desolate, al one and searching...
so i walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
so i'll tie it around, and around and around...
i'll tie me down

i'll fantisize of leading many and leaving us behind.
in your eyes, you were the one that tried.

if seconds is what holds us here,
then you my dear are the one i fear today...
we'll try this one more time...

this is the moment that we all wait for, are you ready?
are you ready?

im half way there,
(its all on me)
this is what i get for wanting more....
for wanting more

this is the way its got to be;
desolate, alone and searching...
so i walk around with this rope in my hand
(rope in my hand)
so i'll tie it around, and around and around...
i'll tie me down

you cant see past my waving hands...
(just running away again)
you cant see past my waving hands...
(goodbye)

it gets so loud it hurts my ears...

i w anna know how to get through this
(how to get through this)
without choking up.

i cant feel you,
your so far from me...

im half way there,
(its all on me)
this is what you get for wanting more...
its all on me.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-25T22:04:00

2004-09-26T02:04:26Z

hey im at connnors

fvck_you @ 2004-09-23T19:29:00

2004-09-23T23:30:32Z

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who are you?

fvck_you @ 2004-09-21T21:38:00

2004-09-22T01:39:56Z

Hawthorne Heights, The Break, No hollywood Ending, Aberdeen, Shatter the Spotlight, Synonyms For Her. Amazing show tonight.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-20T20:28:00

2004-09-21T00:29:20Z

Why cant * i * just be happpy?

fvck_you @ 2004-09-18T17:59:00

2004-09-18T22:02:06Z

alright well lets just say last night was like crazy. lic and sarah came over. we went to wawa like twice fronted some red bulls, then kc calls me, we meet up with him and his friends, and they come back to chill for a lil. then they all go and tommy o, andrew, dave, and gary come over. they left around 1 and me lee and sarah stayed up all night, im so tired. i just though i'd update on how my life was goin.

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fvck_you @ 2004-09-15T15:32:00

2004-09-15T19:33:19Z

i kno i've been confusin with my entries, with sayin yeah i hate guys, i love them, blah blah.... but the truth is...

i really want a boyfriend, soon.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-13T19:17:00

2004-09-13T23:18:00Z

guys ar gay.

im in a bad mood, as u can tell.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-12T21:23:00

2004-09-13T01:25:42Z

i had the best night of my life tonight.it was amazing.

he's so adorable.<3

fvck_you @ 2004-09-09T19:50:00

2004-09-09T23:59:52Z

okay i love highschool. its amazing, i love my classes and i love my friends<3 today i had such a good day today. so many hot boys. and one of them said hi to me, and the other boy that i like talked to me! maybe somethin will happen with one of them, hopefully.. i love boys. hehe... comment me.. yo *

fvck_you @ 2004-09-04T21:22:00

2004-09-05T04:28:21Z

ive been thinking and i think im ganna quit my drinking days. all it does for me is make me an emotional mess, an idiot, or it makes me fuck something up. it made me gain so much weight too seriously i must have gained at least 10 pounds just from drinking. i havent really drank that much in a while but still i dont see the point anymore. the most i get anyway is just like a good hour or two of havin fun, but i can have fun without drinking and not feeling like shit the next day. and anyway everyone seems to be drinkin now a days, its just gettin old. it seems like so yesterday or something. im ganna find something else to do with my life. i dont wanna become an alcoholic that fucks my whole life up. so goodbye alcohol.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-03T11:04:00

2004-09-03T15:07:00Z

summer nights are growing cold &

august goodbyes are getting close

this summer was sweeet. vacations, parties, boys, friends. <3 it could have been better, but im not complaining. comment and tell me how your summer went.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-01T16:07:00

2004-09-01T20:07:28Z

eh. fuck it. im over it. heh.
like whoa. anyway im happy again. i guess it was just a shock. idk. but ive come to realize that i dont really give a shit. heh. <3 thanks everyone for trying to help me and cheer me up. <3 it made me come to my senses once again. <3 i love you's.

as for the love life. im single. and im happy with it. i was kind of missing the boyfriend material in my life a few days ago, but its kinda of better being single, there's no one bitching at you for shit, no fights, just basically chillin with your friends, and occasional hooking up that doesnt mean anything, but you're still cool with that person. so the single life aint all that bad to come to think of it. but eventually i do want a boyfriend, and by school starts im keeping my eyes open. ;)

well ill update later, gotta get ready for cheer.

fvck_you @ 2004-09-01T00:04:00

2004-09-01T04:12:35Z

Why cant i just be happy?

im upset.

"This message is for you
To spark a memory from the past
To speak words I never could speak
A apology for fucking up a good thing"

fvck_you @ 2004-08-31T02:15:00

2004-08-30T06:22:10Z

today deserved a livejournal update like whoa. this is how my day started. i woke up at 12. i decided to go back to bed until like 1230. didnt work out that way, i finally got out of bed at around 330. at about 4 me and mom went to mcdonalds and i came home and ate. a little afterward dougs all yo come over, so i do. it was pretty much me watching them play cards at first. so then billy lee came inside and was like yo pats outside with everyone. so after like 5 minutes me doug macky joe stephen and bill go outside and chilled with talia chelsea alaina meghan pat shawn jimmy cullen and a few other cool kids.

we all decide to go to wawa. this is where it starts to get crazy. we ordered our food, the usual. and then all of the sudden some sweet kid named ricky jones comes in side and everyones pretty much is messin with him. so i dont kno exactly how it happened but we're chillin in the dentist parking lot and rickys all "eh yo im ganna pour this soda on your head doug." i guess cas doug was thrwoing strawberries at him. so ricky then takes a strawberry off the ground and smashes it on dougs head. dougs all yo f u. so he chases ricky down the street and throws a slurpee at ricky and it hits him in the back.

rickys acting tough as hell by this point and is chasing doug with the soda about to pour it on his head. doug runs in wawa. so we're all in wawa and rickys waiting for doug to come outside. im all doug i got your back. so i try to sneak up on ricky and grab the bottle from him. it didnt work. so to make a long story short ricky never really gets doug. so hes all pissed off cas everyone is all makin fun of him so he decideds to sit on this person's porch. and we're all "aw stoop kids afraid to leave his stoop" it was the funniest night of the summer. so yeah we wound up back at dougs playing cards, i was the winner, my first time playing. beginners luck? or am i just all around amazing?

fvck_you @ 2004-08-31T01:30:00

2004-08-30T05:28:17Z

me and my love nick at ozzfest on the bus.. i love him so much<33

fvck_you @ 2004-08-28T22:19:00

2004-08-28T02:16:43Z

last night was ozzfest. it was amazing. i was with my family and robyn came. we saw mostly all the second stage bands and my uncle zakk and a few other on the main stage. when we watched slipknot we were ont he side of the stage and shawn (one of the drummers) pulled me over and danced with me on stage. it was so much fun. we got home from ozzfest around 130, i have 2 pictures with my love nick then im waiting for ill get them soon and post them.

today me and robyn woke up at like 1230 and then i slept till like 330 and we got up took showers and hung out with doug stephen pat macky and jeff.

here's some pictures from today.

http://photobucket.com/practice.php?id=9yky

http://photobucket.com/practice.php?id=9yma

fvck_you @ 2004-08-27T03:03:00

2004-08-26T07:00:21Z

like the new layout?

fvck_you @ 2004-08-26T01:29:00

2004-08-25T05:26:50Z

i got back from cheerleading camp today it was so much fun i met so many new people. today i hung out with robyn and we had the best time, macky, pat, and stephen. the are my CONFESSIONSS! haha it was awesome. we walked to taco bell and took a short/long cut. it was fun. comment me<3 cas i love u

fvck_you @ 2004-08-21T21:30:00

2004-08-21T01:29:24Z

well im home from california, it was a lot of fun. we did so much stuff. we went to beverly hills, casteic, thousand oaks, hollywood and las angelos. it was great especially since my 2 bestfriends came with. i finally got to see my sister. but tomorrow i have to get up at like 6 and leave for cheerleading camp. i dont really wanna go. today i hung out with stephen guy macky doug and pat pretty much the whole day.

[edit] i saw tom ogara today.
[edit edit.] they have a new slide at the park, its green. hey stephen omark, they have a new slide, and might i add "its fangood"
[edit edit edit.] COMMENT WARS! COMMENT ME FUCKERS!<3 I LOVE U

fvck_you @ 2004-08-02T11:17:00

2004-08-02T15:18:03Z

Im leaving for california at 2 a.m

IM GANNA MISS ALL OF YOU.

Be back August 19th.

Today im mostly ganna hang out with everybody for as long as i can.<3

fvck_you @ 2004-08-02T02:37:00

2004-08-02T06:49:25Z

I dont think this friends only is working out. heh oh well.

Im back from maryland. it was pretty fun, could have been better. i was there for about a week and i missed everyone back here so much. We mostly walked on the boardwalk and went in the same stores everyday so it was real boring. Today i got home at about 1 and i took a shower and did my make-up and hair and then joe came over. We went to pats and met up with him stephen and rj. So we decide to go to wawa and then a little while later macky chad doug and his cousin meet up with us there. It was fun. We went back to dougs for a little then i came home for about a half hour and then went out again with macky and joe. We wound up going to wawa again and shawn met up with us. Tonight was one of the best nights of summer.

I wrote something before, it's kind of gay, but comment on what you think about it. I haven't written in a while so i thought i'd give it another try, but im disappointed in it.

"Tell me what's on your mind. How does it feel
to know what you've put me through? I
dont want to know. Like you, I will forget
everything.
Tell me what you think of when you hear the songs
we listened to on the radio. Tell me what you
think of when you hear my name being said.
I dont want to know.
I wonder what happened to my picture I gave you. And
tell me what thoughts go through your mind when you're all
alone. Do you feel pain deep inside? Leave these
questions left unanswered. Curiosity fills my mind. I wish
I knew. My insecurities are killing me. So tell
me how do you honestly feel about me?
Nevermind.
I dont want to know.
You're no longer a memory to me."

im better off without you

2004-07-23T03:58:57Z

people seem to be so fucking gay, one day they're calling me and then the next they hate me and are like fucking bitchin at me. and today was gay as shit, robyn left, she was mad at stephen for leaving, idk, so im kinda pissed offf...

everyone seems to be saying how they feel about people these days so tell me what you think of me, or just anyone, leave it anonymous

fvck_you @ 2004-07-18T16:22:00

2004-07-18T20:24:41Z

welll the past few weeks have been pretty good. ive been hanging out with cassie epp robyn stephen macky doug joe and 2 others mostly,fun. me doug joe stephen robyn and macky made the sweetest video tape ever. XXX rated. no just kidding that would be cool tho, no just kidding again it wouldnt. heh<3 yeah anyway i thought id update cas i havent in a while<3 comment me fuckers